You’ll be living under different roof, just a few months from now
The time you got engaged it felt like a lot of time is still there to be spent together,
But as the days pass by and you’re getting closer to your D-day,
I feel like I am loosing a hold on time and we could just postpone it a bit more.
You have been there since the day I was born, and till time now I have been
watched upon by you with guarded eyes. Life without being questioned for my tiniest actions
and without being constantly reminded having a second mother would be so strange.
Nobody to call me an extra unwanted addition to the family, nobody to fight over the TV remote,
nobody to assure that I am looking pretty in that new dress, and help with shopping dilemmas.
Nobody to chat chit about boys, and tease me about the new friend I just made
And other hundreds of fights, nicknames and secrets that would remain only with us all our lives.
Not finding you at home each day after work and knowing you’ll not be sharing the bed anymore
Would be such an unfamiliar feeling. However, it seems good that I could decorate the room
As I wish and would not be asked to pick up my things now and then, and also the car would be
My luxury forever. But Sharing the title of a sister with your new sister in law gives an unwanted jealousy And giving you to another family, makes me think that your to be husband could also stay with us and provokes me to break the rituals.
It is so weird how all our childhood we kept complaining about each other’s presence, and now when
Time has come to bid adieu a fainted smile appears with an inexplicable pain in the heart. I know I don’t show such emotions quite often, being the introvert one but letting you go causes an agitation to stop you.
I have been your baby sister all this while, to take care me was your unassigned responsibility which you fulfilled so well that now I fear would not live up to your expectations and all the things that I have learnt from you. I hate your priorities have changed due to changes in your life, and you share your love with so many other new people. But I assure myself that you’ll love me the same way like you do now by keep asking the same questions again and again
I know it would be hard and this day has to come sometime soon, but seeing your eyes glitter with his love and your smile widening while you look at him, and most importantly the way he takes care of you,
Gets me convinced you’ll be fine in your new place and your new world. I wish you just not forget the little world that would significantly lonelier in your absence and it would be much more blessed and happy there.
I know I am not the one who says all such stuff but for a while bear such flow of emotions as letting you go is like letting go a part of me, and this is to remind you that I love you a lot and a lot, and nobody can ever replace you.
P.S. You’ll always be fatter than me and I’ll never stop teasing you for that.
Your little sister